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haha this is the first time that someone was pacing me at jogging.. made me run like damn bloody fast, so is pacing a mutual thing?
yeah i guess so since i need to put in effort to keep up with whoever's pace...

haiz.... no sunday night blues.. thats good for now at least.

Current Location: home
Current Music: some drums in the distant background

how does one feel nonchalent abt everything?

was looking at laterns just now, felt good doing something different for once. the mind, the flesh is smiling. but the heart apparently is not.
is that nonchalence.

wat a difference a year makes, or didn't make?

I am not tired physically or mentally. just feel lacking. maybe thats nonchalence for me. haiz

Current Location: Home
Current Mood: nonchalent
Current Music: doning of the fan

Playlist of songs getting compiled. so fun downloading mp3....

Current Music: Mika - Big Girl You're beautiful

my hp no went out of bat today, and i had to make 2 urgent calls
then i pluck out of my head their nos, like they were always in my sub-conscious.

went to a pinoy bar today, love it... fun the pple were warm. good old pinoy hospitality.
the little things make u happy.

Current Location: home
Current Mood: wierd
Current Music: none

haha time for my out-of-the blue i wanna update my blog kinda of moment.

pple i know are slimming down. one told me he dropped 5 kg in like 2 weeks. i am like wow, but its not me why should i care? dun flaunt. i can't be bothered.
its is the "karen" (as in karen from will and grace), the self-obnoxious speaking.

went jogging saw the new sex and the city movie poster. different format. instead of 45 min worth of true gold in truth about relationships, its now 90 mins of gold. maybe who know. lets not get too CARRIEd away here.

last but not least, i just watch my season 2 episode of 38. Hey La, Hey La, My Ex-Boyfriend's Back   of will and grace. made me ponder again.... nice episode...
i love the comedy so hooked onto it now. i used to watch it on dvd, now i stream it.

will truman, grace adler, jack mcfariyland, karen walker, and rosario salazar, you will be my friends for the next few seasons. pls dun give up on my streaming or i will cut u up singnet.

Current Location: home where else??
Current Music: NIL

some old photos. can't help it. just put on blog cos dun think will be updating for long time to come...
rem this was taken when i was walking from one check-point to another at 九寨沟。 蛮喜欢这张照片的。

当我的头发还是金色的时候，哈哈



And another one from Chicago, when my hair went back to black

Current Location: Home
Current Music: 翅膀 林俊杰

Dear Snoop,

I know I have not seen you for a long time. and i do miss you a lot, although you dun really see me now, but i want you to know that i have always and will always love you.

You may not be the most well-behaved of dogs but i really miss the days when i was stressed, and you will let me pet your neck, and i will be ok again.  You were greedy and will go only to towards food, but weren't all dogs like that.

I also know you like running, remember the canal where we used to jog. I really miss those days, and you will clamour for the water.

Come next month, maybe i will never have the chance to see you again, but i want you to know that i hope you will find a good home and someone who will love you as much as i at least once did.

Lots of love.
J

Current Location: Home
Current Mood: disappointed
Current Music: 蓝色雨 BY 温岚

tmrw working. the heart is so reluctant
Period

Current Location: home

just received a msg from friend that she's getting married on new year's day. new start to a new year. cheers to that.

worked 2 consecutive 12 hrs day. damn tired... bleah

 I just ordered a value meal, waiting patiently for food very hungry now

the hibernating bear wakes up to find food... haha

Current Location: Home
Current Mood: crappy

After a few cordial sms, the final sms came like that,

"......Call me when you have any problems yeah"

But what if my problem was you.....Been through ups and downs. This is currently my down...
Lucky I have broadband now... sweet bitterness..

Current Location: home
Current Mood: rejected

2 days 1 night in Melaka.
Just take bus and go, the just-do it and go spirit excites me.

Bus to larkin, cheap tkts (RM 14.6), comfortable seats.
Cheating opponent in mastermind and chess, how to win? Haha

Touch-down, chicken rice ball. Then the Christ Church. Nver been in there before cos last time here, spent more time eating than actually touring ard.

Went up the hill, saw the Portuguese ruins, took some nice photos, went down to Makhota. Saw 2 squabbling nonya performers (why the constant female impersonation). Old town Coffee. a bit over-kill, Malaysia trip sure include a pop-by at that place. but must admit its nice.

went down, stopped by the hotel near st paul. went up to the rooftop garden. VERY VERy nice. maybe its the atmosphere. the blue sky, the birds, the jacuzzi, the banter, the causalness of it all. wish time could stop there. saw the old-school palyground when we came down. many photos taken there

Walk down jonker st, found cheap accomodation at heeren hotel, affordable, roomy and basic. walked down jln bungaraya, saw old accquaintance. wierd wierd feeling.

The rays of the setting sun illuminated the old facades of the walls. felt so "aristic"

Later tried walking to portuguese square to try the seafood, very far (ended up on cab) Never ever go there, we were hijacked upon touch-down and were jostled between the different owners. Hated it

In the end, we went to a nearby Newton hawker centre. Good food, nice claypot rice, ikan bakar (got this nonya taste) very nice, Rojak from kuala lumpur. a lot of food, but worth it cos we walk damn bloody long. Then later satay celuk, nice gravy sauce, the tau pok soaked all the sauce, damn shiok.

Later Arsenal-Man U match at Hotel Equatorial. Not a soccer fan but good game nevertheless, all the attacking and that last minute goal in the 92nd min. extreme.

walk back, play cards, enginneering students are not so good at counting afterall. My memory also better. Haha they lost, i think El won one game.

Next morning breakfast at this Hainanese coffeeshop, one of the best toasted breads, fluffy , soft and toasty. Much much better than ya kun. tried walking to see got good nonya food. not open so went back to JB on KKKL express. comfy bus, same good price.

Reach Larkin, went massage. not so enjoyable cos i was sneezing throughout, too cold i guess. and also from last night El snatching the blanket. haha Later dinner at Zhu Lin (Bamboo forest), nice otak-fish. Movie at City Sqaure (stardust) Great sci-fi, fantasy, great acting, cheap tkts. What more can one ask for?

And now back home writing journal. Good weekend.
And I am right, Netherlands is correct
(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Holland)



The Dutch ruins


Dutch windmill


The river view


Sunset


Old school charm 



Satay Celup. Good Satay Gravy



At the end of Jonkers St (and a nice trip) 
 

Current Location: Home
Current Mood: calm

did not drink too much this week, but feeling tipsy always.

sat, caught "under the tuscan's sun" at botanic gardens, drank sparking, nipped a few bites. it was good. enjoyable except that we spent most of our time trying to chill the sparkling haha.
it talks about not pinning too much for something, for when u least expect it, you will get it. it may not happen to you, but at least you will appreciate that it has happen to someone else close to you.

today was a long run to treetop, then bottle tree then bark cafe at changi. clocked almost 150 km today, crazy. when u have the car, u just keep running ard. sunday night blues thats what they call it. this sunday night has not been that severe. its bearable

i msged on fri night as i laid unconscious in front of vivo waterfront. i did not why i do that, maybe its the tequilla, maybe its the long island tea. but i did what i wanted to so, and yes i knew there will be no response, and indeed there was none.

i took a slight detour today. i looked up and the lights were still on. i saw a golden retriever today and believed it to be snoop. is it really that hard to forget? a friend msged me that letting go is part of the healing process. i am healing...

i was asked today what do you do when yor are feeling down. I remember always asking snoop, "how are you today?", as if he could speak and tell me his boring day in the house. the nape of his neck, the rubbing of his stomach. snoop has a way of making my heart smile a little.

Live for today, they say. i try my best to live to the fullest, but the nagging seems there. It lingers on and though i am ok most of the time, the feeling still lingers on.

the hours ticked by...

Current Location: In my mood
Current Mood: cold
Current Music: None

I was reading my past entry sort of a retrospective. was that me really writing those stuff.
they seem like someone else writing. they seem so remote like reading something thats so distant.

pple are made up of memories, and as i try to re-trace my steps, i feel even more lost...erm confused maybe.

got hooked onto smoking again, bad and costly habit need to cut down... but at some moments, really need a stick to calm down. to calm my nerves.
must start planning for some sort of a trip soon. E told me abt Tioman, sounds not that bad.

some sun will do me wonders of good.now got internet, life indeed seems somwhat meaningful at times. haha... i should read up on red wine soon, why red wine is different from white wine.

Period. the hours ticked by.

Current Location: somewhere
Current Mood: blank
Current Music: droning fan

Scorching in Perth... right now, 41 degrees at wave rock is never a fun thing to be in but the view was spectacular... imagine how u will feel when the wave comes crashing down at u. tsunmai-like

flying off to adelaide later, long early morn flight...


let me see what i rem from today.

wheat field endless endless and endless fields of gold.. stretching beyond the horizons
wave rock (main attraction)
hippo's yawn
mulga's cave (outast aborigine, not albino) Hehe
doggie cemetry
york (for morning tea)
scones and cakes for afternoon tea (what's the place called? Balbinox)
salt sea

Guess its always fun to see tranquiltiy at its very best... desolated little towns where age has forgotten except for the occassional tourist bus

life has gone on the slow-way these 2 days.. guess not very keen to retire here afterall.. hehe
perth city is small, compact for some..

And yes fremantle yesterday, blistering hot day too... ate fish and chips (fresh and crispy), went to the roundhouse(execution grds), beaches, e-shed market, fremantle markets, fremantle prison... did not went in cos too bluster' expensive to see dilipidated buildings

guess aust just has too short of a history (or unglam one) in fact, to publicise just like singapore... there is just so much u can say abt a place which has not much of a history

History. I am making my own now... see ya tomorrow morn.. adelaide..wanna try barrosa valley sparkling.

Current Location: Perth Great Eastern Highway
Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: Nil

Lucky it was not that cold, it still autumn i guess...getting lost in Korea is never fun. the road signs look all the same... no one speaks english.. and freakin' hell I never brought my map...was looking for that toopir LG signboard. Too complacent, you know with all the turns and winding u may never get back to the hostel.. wow it was quite intimidating.

With a stroke of luck luckily saw elaine, and manage to get directions back...furthermore a shortcut, left-right-(LG signbaord glooming) and another right...

went hiking up the mountains today, went into another total ODAC experience. climbed up that steep slope. and had such a difficult time getting down. but beautiful Insawon. the view was magnifique. tomorrow perhaps go up Namsan and see Seoul Tower...not bad Namdemum will also not be a bad choice...

Never order Korean cold noodles ever again... too much pepper sauce...lucky manage to burn off all the calories, luckily by walking all the way from Sinchon to Hwajeong. 2 bloody subway stops, could have taken the bus but guess I am just prone to walking. walk walk.. I walk my talk...

I still prefer the korean dishes near the office... not that bad at least they taste half decent and u know what to expect.. hear is more like a hit and miss (3 times) hit 1 time kinda of thing..

혇ㄴㄴ 좀ㅅ ㅑ 므 쇼ㅔㅑㅜㅎ ㅏㅐㄱ둠...내 려ㅜ
(Guess what I am typing Korean) not sure whether this is the right words... who cares

haven't been feeling this free since a very long time...

Aust next stop here I come..

Current Location: Hwajoeng, Seoul 8 blood mins away
Current Mood: jubilant
Current Music: Computer droning

tennis was backhand today... coach said forehand was ok for me.. but u can't trust urself when u play only once a week...

dun feel like hanging out since got warded... me very xian, maybe its the allure of fags have not been having them for almost a mth.

dun crave them but it just feels empty at times... now missing something... i am not sure...work is okay not challenging but ok. pay is low but ok not that bad...can surivive since i pay only for myself.

yeah tgif tomorrow can wear casual...

been msn-ing at work, but this is a theory we have espoused thro msn with a friend.

first, ugly pple should not have kids cos their kids will turn out ugly its just gonna be a sad case of intelligent pple walking ard but with faces like S***.

also why singapore is so into gene therapy and stem cell research is cos we have a very bad gene pool in SG. our ancestors come from Fukien, Canton, Sumatra, Java, South Indian province.... so to start with we have bad genes.

so leaders have a deficient theory where they wanna improve gene pool, they keep pumping money into research on stem cell therapy... bleah and all sorts of funny kooky stuff.

its a very freudian thingy, our sub-conscious driving us on...bad gene pool = more research on improving that.

for those countries who have not caught on this gene pool thingy, its maybe their gene pool is already strong and also maybe they are still self-conceited or deluded abt their own genes

maybe its time they take stock.. of thir lousy genes..MORE RESEARCH FOR THEM

Current Location: Tanjong pagar
Current Mood: productive
Current Music: SHAGGY - YOU ARE MY ANGEL

Imbibing urself with alcohol on a tuesday night is indeed fun...it has been 4 days but actually i am already quite sick of the routine


not the work itself but just the tpt, see the clattering of high heels on the steps, the long trip back home, quarreling with parents.. its becoming too much of a routine. omg only 4 days and i am feeling that way.. need to drink more to get away.

when can i start having my own pad... feel like renting one but knowing that with my current pay status, it seems a distant dream away.. jia lat... must break out soon

Current Location: Tanjong pagar
Current Mood: cranky
Current Music: wisemen - James blunt